In these recent times, I've been feeling too crappy... lately. I'm lost once again and I really don't know what my purpose in life is. It's... too much. I don't show it a lot but it's slowly getting under my skin and I'm just worried I'll have a big breakdown or something. I'm just simply not happy. My current work situation is not all that dandy. I'm extremely lonely because at the end of the day all, conversations that I have is a conversation over the internet. I don't see my friends that much. I have money problems. I'm not blaming anyone but my dad's been really down too and it's affecting me a lot since I'm absorbing the negativity like a sponge. I wake up scared every day worrying that something bad will happen and I try so hard to be as positive as I can but it seems like it's not working. I pray every time that things will turn for the best but nothing is. I'm tired every day and it's just a big dark point in my life right now.
I think that the things that are keeping me sane are my aunt and fandom.
I'm sorry I haven't been commenting much, f-list. Things are a bit hard for me right now.